the thing become worse

yst i sleep really late,bcaz i cant sleep...
so today i wake up late also.....
i'm pretending fine,n i got my own reason 4 doing so...
juz now come inside my blog c the comment,thank you lemon and jian wen...
about wat happening,i found out tat i am starting to confuse
i'm not sure tat i should tell ppl or not...
this time  the problem is different,
mayb this problem ady face by me 4 a long time,but no one knew about it...
its a very special problem for myself,
i admit tat i can tell all my problem to my friends,but this one...
i dun noe how to start,and i dun noe how to tell it!n i juz realise it when someone is juz infront of me,but i cant say it out!!i'm useless!!!!
am i a coward?mayb i am?
why cant i say this out?my tounge get tie up?
why i scare to say it out?am i so care bout my self-respect?
i dun noe.....today this thing become worse,
okay,i juz tell everyone tat this is a family problem...
n the detail,i juz dun noe how to tell it...
sry all my buddy,i juz dun noe how to say it out to u guys.....