UPDATE UPDATE

14/12
last day of SPM,finish paper2 than go pulang buku 1st,later 12.45 sure many ppl so pulang early better^^
kena hukum RM1 caz 1 buku no balut~haiz~
afternoon play with fren at m8~
than go soke~keep riding motor here n there~
it was windy caz the day feel like going to rain~
night work~
tats all~

15/12
wake up late,kiwi got ask me wan go watch fengyun2 or not~
caz tired,so dun feel like wanna to go,so dint go lo~
night work,ntg special
juz work till quite late

16/2
mum call me wake up say wanna go b cameron,
YEAH!was happy!!
arrive at cameron about 2 like tat~
go out yamcha with ron n kaihang
call something 3lapis
it was totally sweet!!!too sweet!!
night have BBQ at ron house~
6.30 it was raining,i thought it will cancel,but it was still on^^
10 ppl having bbq~
it was fun when the hotdog finish,looking at the real dog say ''hotdog''~haha
night cant sleep actually =.=

17/2
 morning wake up go to bath~caz at AT ady biasa bath at morning~
then,i bath,but i shake after i come out from the bathroom!it was SUPER cold!!!!
dun noe hw i got a scratch on my hand,yst when sleeping i think still dun have de ar =.=
when ipoh with bk,Jx,Ron,JiaEn n ah Leng~
when going down i was pening~
sudah tidak biasa dgn jalan cameron TT
we when to ipoh perak~
find milk with JiaEn keije,but we cant milk~only find b 2 donut~
have lunch at foodcourt there~
later when to Jusco
meet Ah tong n elu~
elu was friendly as usual^^
actually going to bowling 1,but someone dun have place so change the place to play other stuff(i dun noe wat tat is~haha)
later night when b cameron~
on the bus the ppl beside me keep talking phone only ><''
2 keiJe also talk no stop 1~haha~whole bus is their sound~~
night stay at home,sleep quite early,caz tired~
but wake up early the other morning also~~

18/12
went b AT,
but.....
i hate it la~we reach AT about 12.30,but the electric current stop at 12 like tat ><
so dun go fren house~whole AT dint have current~~~~~
ntg to do,so i'm bored for the whole afternoon,dun noe hw i fall asleep,than wake up got current ady~

19-22/12
ntg special lo~~~i'm bored~~~

YeahYeah^^

Time now:4.41p.m.
I just got home not 15 minutes yet~or can say juz come out from cinema not half hour yet~haha~
Just watch Ninja Assassin with buddy again~xD
4 of us go today,kiwi drive the car^^
quite nice this movie,but juz the blood a lot!human dun have tat much blood in our body gua ><''
second time go to this cinema,haha~fall in luv with watching movie^^
the fighting action really cool!!i like it~today ticket was just RM8,last time the 2012 ticket was RM10 ~T.T
but for sure 2012 is more nice la~haha~
by the way,the 2012 was so long,it was more than 2 hour ><''
this one is just 1hourhalf like tat~xixi
poster of Ninja Assassin^^

T.T

Yeah~long time dint write anything on my bloggie ady~~
yst after finish kimia,when to play with fren^^
so long dint go out play joR~wakaka~
but...too bad i got gastric pain again...
at night i wanna to sleep,but my gastric pain make me cant fall asleep...
i eat the gastric thing,something like alkali?but its the same ><''
i dun noe i wake up once or twice at the night...
wake up before my bell ring ><''
need to go to sch to have special class by our chinese teacher at 8
about 7.15 go for breakfast with buddy~dint go eat nasi lemak caz my gastric sure will beh tahan leh~
so we go eat roti lor~sry guys making u guys cant go eat nasi lemak T.T
tat was a long special class ><'' and lots of homework too!!
tmr still need to go ><"'
afternoon going for movie with buddy~yeah^^
by the way~last time went to saw the 2012,it was nice!!(it was after the BI,BM,SEJ test if i not rmr wrong)xD
the action really make us all luv to watch it!!

明天...该到的时刻还是到了...

明天就考试了！！
突然想到一首歌，好像有人问我“怎么了，你累了？”
真的好累哦，这个月虽然说读书，但感觉上没什么input
明天考试了，才发觉好多东西还没读到，
我真的好累哦，好紧张...
好怕明天做不好哦，好怕明天开了考卷都是我不会的哦...
但不管怎样该对自己有一点点信心吧？
尽力就好...谢谢全部告诉我这样做的人...
还有今天在学校谢谢文荣哦，你的一句“读得多少就读多少了”让我有了点许的动力，
但，现在真的开始紧张了！好难读进去啊！！很多还没读啦！！@#$%^&*

very weired feelinG

start from yesterday i got some very weired feeling~
i dun noe how to express it~
this feeling appear after i saw some article~
i have been live for 17 years but what actually did i really wan????
i ask myself,very hard...
but...i dun noe...

long time dint online ady~~

miss my blog and surfing internet!!long time dint online ady~
less online now~but mayb no one is visiting either~haha
my trial end wif badbad result =.=''
sry for letting many ppl down~erm,sry to lemon too~just got half of the a's u expected~3only =.=
and thank my godness,lucky 30 mark pass ady,so i get 1 E for trial(at least no  fail better le gua)

c something that make me have some new thinking~
1.when is the last time u work hard?
2.did u did something 'miracle' before?
3.are u the same as last time?

forget i saw this on whose bloggie ady(although it u just a few minites ago)~
erm,last time i work hard ar?mayb before PMR?or when i'm in primary sch?long time dint work hard ady
miracle ar?mayb form3 i did make a miracle before,i'm make the posible of the second class student get full a's for PMR?
i'm the same like old days,just i am growing up,i can think more!mayb for this 2 year i change totally but i am changing back!

dad and mum,dun worry so much,i'll do my best for my SPM
i'll will try hard for this last mounth before exam!!
mummy,i will less online as i promise u,i will try to put my heart into my study...
mayb miracle will happen again if i try my best?

among this days tat i dint online,
i get enough rest,eat well and sometimes even get some afternoon nap~
this afternoon,when i was resting on bed,the sunlight in so bright outside,
and i was just lying on bed,got some old feeling just like when i'm still in primary sch,
i enjoyed thos day although dint have computer~
i wont die even if i dun have computer,just the last mounth till SPM,
i'll b studying hard~i knew tat i waste 2 year ady,
form 4 and 5 i have waste it for some reasons~
study hard just for 2 mounth till the end of SPM!!
CH,u can do it,take out the convidence and the feeling of going test!
this 2 year dun noe why i cant have the feeling of going exam,i wont nervous even when exam came,tats why i dint study this 2 years,time to becoming back!
i got the feeling of nervous again,feeling tat i meet back an old fren and also an unknow person~
will be missing for 2 mounth~even if no ppl visit me >__<
will be missing many frensss~~~
sms me if u want to chat^^
mine 017 number never change just for the event of old fren finding me^^

寂寞好了i like this songs!
and i even like it when i saw the MV
likes the opening!!!year of 17 years old that cant go back!this opening touch my heart
and the scrip,just feeling some of my story inside~~haha~

studystudy for the last 2 mounth!SPM will be here in 1 mounth times~all my fren,GamBaTeH~~
do the best and never regreat

LUV this songs!!some of my heart story><

曲名：寂寞好了
歌手：蔡旻佑

拼命的奢望 闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手 就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的 心脏
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝 我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长
关于爱 感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放 oh~
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
没有你 心放空了 寂寞 好了

myday''29 September

this morning wake up sudah hujan besar...
but mum dun let me no go sch...........
after sch went home hujan besar lagi,
so i sleep for the whole afternoon...
and dun noe why,today internet totally suck...
so slow and even cant open some of the application in FB...
and make some correction,today i juz knew tat 7D is 45 above ==''
tat mean my kimia is 8E?i'm totally suck...
feel a bit hopeless yst,but thx to sms tat suddenly sent by miracle,tat help me feel a lot better
put more afford,put more strength,i will keep improve myself,
tat wat i telling myself now...
erm,i think for this  trial,i got only 2 a's?...lol...
chinese and english also b3...haiz...
now left add math and bio,
2 subject tat i scare also =.=''

myday''28 September(hate it)

okay,yst night i cant sleep,juz bcaz i keep thinking of the result...Zzz
morning wake whole body feel like pain,bad sign.....
n today get a lot of paper,all die chamcham...
1st i get kimia paper,7D,pass ady,than BM period discuss,
MA period,getA1but the marks was low...SEjarah,another 7D...Zzzzz
after recess,BI period,i got 73,B3 >_____<
sivik period,teacher no hope wif us ady...
than fizik period!6C...haiz...
than went to 5J for account period(this the 1st time =.=)
and as i guess,i fail it...T.T(Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz)
no mood ady la!!!!!!
went home ady 2.40,3tuition,Zzz
so i bath and take my lunch quickly~
when i went there,all ppl were standing outside,
1 of the friend call teacher and no tuition...Zzzzz...
today i am totally bad condition...
no mood,feel sry,hopeless,and feel very down...
and 1 thing for sure,i dun have the courage to tell my mum about the result.....

waste another holiday~

tml open sch le =.=
time to die(caz it time to take trial result)
okay,wat i did the whole holiday?
haha,yupe,i waste it again ><'''
tml really scare going sch.....

i wan some rain out there...

okay...now is 3am in the morning,i cant fall asleep...or mayb can say i dun wan to sleep?
this day was hot,i hope tat it will rain,i love raining day,
i can juz looking at the rain and think anything i like...
i think something wrong wif my communication?or mayb no one noe wat i feel?
okay,today is the day,i try to explain it to someone tat i told every single of my feeling,
but this time is dif,tat person cant feel wat i feel this time,or mayb i dint say all the story?
or missunderstand wat i wan to tell?but nvm,i noe u dun feel well either,i juz dun kacau u better(i think?)...
so i need someone else tat can noe my feeling...

OR MAYBE I HAVE GROW UP?I CAN HANDLE IT MYSELF?I THINK YES?
OKAY,I WILL TRY,I TRY TO BE FINE EVEN WHEN I AM ALONE

juz need some raining day for me to have some brain thinking...(i weired~xD)

My Way Of Growing Up

tat day view bk blog(long time ady),she say she feel tat i hav grown up,
and yst,when relative say tat i hav grown up also,i think about it...
i always told myself tat ''i'm still a child,i'll do watever i wan!i wanna play and get joy!''
but when i think about it yst,i juz realise something,
i lie to myself,but without knowing,i start acting mature n think from many ways...
i think back a long time ago,
when in the primary sch,i dun like to play with a lot of ppl,i like being alone,
tat time i dint get any close friends and give ppl feeling tat i'm cold...
form1,i'm the only chinese boy in my class,
so i start to be friends with malay and india boys,
i juz miss thos days,
we may be dif culture but we closely bond,
they teach me about malay culture,
and even teach me how to sing malay songs...
long time ago,when form 1,i dun noe wat is love,
i still remember a malay girl learn how to say ''i love u'' in chinese and say to me ><''
tat time i think she is playing so i ignore her,but still i hope she is playing only...
form 1 and form 2,i learn how to be friends with ppl,
i start to get along with ppl n start to feel tat i love u all to be my friends!
old days,i may be say by ppl tat i'm a bit 'girl',
n i admit it,caz i stay with my mum and 2 little sis,i'm the only boy in house...
long time ago,i mayb not man enough,
but now,i'm not the old day little boy,i can do wat a man can do!!
i'm a teenage boy now,but i'll be a man soon!
when primary,i miss a lot of time play with all my friends,
but form2 is the year i never forget,the year tat i noe tat i'll change my sch
for the 1st time i realise tat i luv all my friends,no matter how close u bond with me...
i'm no more playing alone,i play with friends in the afternoon
primary sch friends and get back all the chance i miss to play with my friends...
form3,i change my sch,1st time i get a super close buddy!
we spent all the time togather,even during the PMR...
but form4,he change sch,i miss him so much,
this few year in the new sch,i learn many thing,
no matter how u try,sometimes when ppl around u say about old day stuff,
u cant feel it,caz u dint spent the old time with them,i spent it with my old friends,friends tat i veryvery miss now...
3year seperate with my old friends,i learn many thing,
for the year i spent in secondary sch,5 year,
i have grow,or mayb still growing?
i learn about wat is about life,love,friendship,culture and many more...
mayb friends tat seperate feel tat the bond of our friendship is going to gone,
BUT
OUR FRIENDSHIP IS ALWAYS THERE,I DUN CARE U STILL REMEMBER ME OR NOT,I DUN CARE EITHER U TAKE ME AS UR FRIENDS OR NOT,U ALWAYS BE MY FRIENDS IN MY HEART
love,may make someone lost the direction,
i admit tat i lost my direction before,
i knew tat u will not c this post,
caz u dun care about me anymore,(and u properly would c eng post also)
i have learn many thing from u,
and 1 tat i wan to say out is,
when u love someone,u dun need to be with him/her
u will feel okay when she/he is happy...
i'm still loving of u,but i sure one day,i'll forget about u,thx for the memory u give me...
LOVE IS SOMETHING UNDEFINE,EVERYONE HAVE DIFFERENT THINKING ABOUT LOVE,FOR MYSELF I JUST BELIEVE I WILL MEET THE RIGHT PERSON SOMEDAYS,I WILL BE WAITING FOR THAT SPECIAL PERSON TO APPEAR
malaysia is full of dif culture,but we can be bond togather,
becaz i try it before,even they bring me to watch some fight(i knew this is not good,xD)
we are closely bond at tat time,sometime we may fight,but fight juz make a friendship become closer,
we help each other,we teach each other,we spent our time togather...
when i spent the time with them,i knew tat,
NEVER JUDGE A PPL SIMPLY,EVERYONE HAVE THEIR CHANCE,JUST GIVE A CHANCE TO EVERYONE AND SPENT THE TIME WITH THEM,PPL WILL BE GOOD TO U WHEN THEY KNEW THAT U IS GOOD TO THEM ALWAYS
**good to ppl without any aim,if have aim,tats is not a real good to ppl...
everyone is special,no one is evil at the beggining,why dun we juz open our heart and treat everyone equal?

LIFE,WE CANT CHANGE THE LIFE THAT WE HAVE PAST,BUT WE CAN CHANGE OUR LIFE IN THE FUTURE
and tats wat i'm going to do!
when u read this post,mayb there is ppl tat say i may be come from a happy family,
i will juz tell u tat u r totally wrong and keep my mouth close after tat...
SAME LIKE PPL,U CAN JUDGE ANY THING SIMPLY,OBSERVE AND KNOWING IT BETTER WILL MAKE U HAVE DIFFERENT FEELING...
i will share wat i feel and my other heart story next time,
hope u guys will not isolate wat my opinion...

the thing become worse

yst i sleep really late,bcaz i cant sleep...
so today i wake up late also.....
i'm pretending fine,n i got my own reason 4 doing so...
juz now come inside my blog c the comment,thank you lemon and jian wen...
about wat happening,i found out tat i am starting to confuse
i'm not sure tat i should tell ppl or not...
this time  the problem is different,
mayb this problem ady face by me 4 a long time,but no one knew about it...
its a very special problem for myself,
i admit tat i can tell all my problem to my friends,but this one...
i dun noe how to start,and i dun noe how to tell it!n i juz realise it when someone is juz infront of me,but i cant say it out!!i'm useless!!!!
am i a coward?mayb i am?
why cant i say this out?my tounge get tie up?
why i scare to say it out?am i so care bout my self-respect?
i dun noe.....today this thing become worse,
okay,i juz tell everyone tat this is a family problem...
n the detail,i juz dun noe how to tell it...
sry all my buddy,i juz dun noe how to say it out to u guys.....

i'm feeling bad than ever

same as the tittle,i'm feeling really bad,it juz like solving a question tat dun hav solution!!!
start from afternoon,i'm feeling really bad when i knew this thing!
i dun noe either i should tell ppl or not...
but when i decide to tell,i find no one.....
when i take up my phone,juz remember tat my phone hav expired 3 days ago...
i'm out of contact...i cant call ppl...
i dun noe wat should i do,i'm starting to nervous,i'm starting to sweat when i think of it...
i dun noe what will happen later,i have no gust to think of it,
it a terrible nightmare for me

myday''19 September

haiz...i'm really suffering...ppl holiday so gud,me holiday dead like ''mummy''...
last day exam ady raining nose,night le who noe i fever ady...
take some medicine and take many sleep this 2 day...
18/9
i'm feeling dead...head really pain...i'm absent for tuition...
caz i sleep  for the whole afternoon till 8 or 9pm n cant sleep at night...
and tat time my head really pain and feel super hot!!
19/9
i dun noe yst how i fall asleep but today wake up at 9...so early...Zzz...
n today,i suffering more terrible...my head feel like going to burst anytime...
i went to tuition,but i dint absord anything this time,caz my head really pain...
lucky mum told me to bring umbrella to tuition,if not kena hujan my fever will be more badly...
my appitade is so poor,caz i feel tat i cant eat anything,my body is hot,and the growing 'big teeth' is really pain...
haha...sry for hearing me complaining today,brain got too hot dun noe say wat joR...

myday''17 September

today really dun wan to go sch...
i'm really tired caz tat day study kimia too late...
it is juz too bad yst kimia test too sleepy inside the hall and my brain turn blank...
it happen again today!!!but for other reason...
today i got a raining nose,i hate raining nose during exam ==''
chinese paper 2,at start i got mood to do,but do till behind no wat mood do ady,
this is bcaz my nose keep ''raining'',i really hate it,by the time of 9,i ady use whole packet of my tissue,
and the test end at 10 ==''
so i tahan lo...simply do ady the exam paper and try lie down on the table...
recess when to canteen and something occurs,dun wanna mention it ady...
then i buy 2 packet tissue at koperasi before the chinese paper 1 start...
luckily i buy it,caz i use another packet again...><'''
i dun noe wat i write for my chinese essay ady,my nose cant stop raining,
it really make me suffer...
after the paper,yeah!!end of our trial!!!
koperasi mesyuarat agung before went home...
holiday!!mum say sent me back to cameron to study for the whole week without com and tv ==''
i think she juz joking,no way she giv me ponteng my tuition go back study xD
wat i do is sure run out and find my fren...wakkaka...
SAY ABOUT OLD FREN,I MISS U ALL...
FOR ALMOST A YEAR ADY I DINT GO BACK...
and my mouth really pain,another teeth is growing out again,
so i'm fever again,sick again lo,
hate la,everytime the ''big teeth'' grow sure sick de...haiz...
afternoon keep raining and thunder,
make me so boring!!bcaz cannot online!!!
and the medicine i take,
mayb i take it too many times ady this year,so it is not working i think?
i eat the medicine very long ady langsung no effect one,
still got raining nose and feel head hothot...
HAPPY HOLIDAY ALL...

myday''16 September

today when home after exam c this video,i was really touched by it...
this songs i hear from other fren before,
but this afternoon saw Cisco share it in facebook,
so i watched it and was really touch!!
hope u guys like it also!
i hear it again and again but dint feel boring about it!it was so nice!
click on the link below to c it too~~
THIS TOUCH MY HEART(try and c it)

today kimia paper,giv zha dao again...
is similier to 2005,2006 paper again...
bio paper 1 giv back le,
only get 26 out of 50...poor marks...T.T

yeah,tml chinese test and trial is over!!
then is the time to study really hard ady!!
thx for all the support of my fren!
HOPE ALL OF MY FREN DID WELL IN THEIR TRIAL AND SPM!!
GUD LUCK ALL!HOPE THE BEST FOR ALL OF U!!!

spent a lot of time to make back the music player~hope u all like it...

myday''15 September

today,i really dun wan to wake up...
caz yst my sis and miracle ady told me tat today perhimpunan will be 2 period...
get up to sch and found tat my class still got more tat half of the class come?i think,i dint count actually...
perhimpunan for quite long...everyone was taking a book in thier hand =.=''
bio period juz wasting my time doing nothing...
after recess is BI period...for my eng 2,i get 55 over 75...quite weak...
all the question on the monsoon history i do wrongly...haiz...
haiz...today at sch,wat kimia teacher hope tat i can do is juz pass my kimia test...
i'm feeling tat i am useless...last year teacher got a high hope on me for getting a for her,
but now she juz hope tat i can pass my kimia test...
it was raining outside,
as i c out the window,for a long time i dint think bout my study ady...
yeah,raining time is time 4 me to sleep...
i lie down on the table,but i'm not asleep,
i'm thinking wat i did for this 2 year...
say truely,i never study hard btw this period of time,all i do is play...
sometimes i study,but juz for a litlle while,
i did hard in exam,but not hard in studying,
as i told my fren i'm going study,
they say i will not did it,caz they feel tat i'll back to play again...
PORMISE IS A PROMISE FOR ME NOW
I'LL SHOW TAT I DID CARE BOUT MY FUTURE
I AM GOING STUDY,JUZ AFTER I POST THIS POST!!
today i write this post early than usual juz bcaz i wanna show tat i will study,and it start from today!
Kimia teacher and mum,sry for letting all of u down,
i'll start to be hardworking...
and thx for miracle teacher for teaching^^
going study,gud luck to all

myday''14 September

today is monday,i wake up at about 5am...
yst,for the 1st time in the trial,
i take up the book and stop play my com,
i study le!!but...
study 2 chapter le,i tertidur joR...lolxx
then i dunno y when i wake up i sleep in aircon room,
i wake up at 6,although my alram bell ady at 5 and 5.30 am...
when i went to my room,i nearly get shock =.=
caz it was dark,i dun realise my grandpa(father side) sleep on my bed =.=''
grandpa come caz the relative tat pass away was his sister...
grandpa i hope tat u r okie...
then i faz go through my book before when to sch...

today was 3 fizik paper...
after this exam,wat i wanna to say is,
why 3 paper got so many similiar to 2005 and 2006 SPM paper ><''
i dun noe do la!!!

when home,dun noe y le,this few day like to play restoran city in facebook...
this few day also keep on add a lot of fren,dun noe de or noe de also add...

read le miracle blog got something to write,
but i dun think tat i'm going to write all of it in this blog,i'll share some old story for today...
i take out my diary to read the old pages before i start my blog...
it was pass,but it is in my memory...

here i tell my fren about my pass,with the girl tat i like the most and cant be forgotton,
long time ago,i ask the girl who she like,
and she answer everyone the same answer everytime...
she said''who likes me,then i'll likes who...''
and mayb i heard this sentences too many,
this sentences become one part of my life...
one of my style or laws...
i take whoever tat take me as fren to be my fren,
juz apply her golden sentences ''who wat me,than i wat him/her''
same like this day,who gud to me,i will gud to him...
same as the other way,if u bad to me,i will not care bout u,
but i dun like to bad to u,caz it hurt ppl feelings,
i noe it caz i fell it before...

THE WORLD IS REALLY BIG,
WE ARE JUST A SMALL DOT ON THE SURFACE OF THE WORLD
ALWAYS THINK POSITIVE,
THERE ARE A LOT OF DIFFERENT VIEW FROM THE WORLD
WHEN U SEE SOMETHING BAD,
WHY DUN U SEE IT FROM ANOTHER ANGLE?
U WILL FOUND SOMETHINGS DIFFERENT

REMEMBER,
WHY WE WAN TO BE SAD WHEN WE CAN LIVE HAPPY?
JUZ TAKE A BREAK AND SMILE SOMETIMES^^

lonely feeling

To:All my frens

i still remember my old blog link,www.iluvallmyfren.blogspot.com
tat wat i feel from a long time ago till now...
I LUV ALL MY FREN-tat wat i wanna told all my fren
if u be my fren,i'll care bout u...
i can share ur sadness,i can be wif u when u feel lonely,or i can do thing to help u up...
when u happy,success,it is okie for u to 4get bout me,
i dun mind,share ur happiness wif someone important to u...
but do remember i'm always open the door of my heart when u need me...
i dun mind if i dint get reward or watever,i dun need tat,
all i wan is juz make my fren happy...
lonely Laws No.1 state tat (everyone tat take me as fren is my fren)
lonely Laws No.2 state tat (i hope my fren share their joy with someone important but i'll be there when they need me)
lonely Laws No.3 state tat (i never hope any fren to share joy wif me,but i share my happiness wif my fren)
if u got any problem,share it wif me
mayb i'm not a gud adviser,but i'm a gud listener ^^
(but tat only to my fren,
 how cont is my fren?
 ppl tat gud to me and care bout me
 but most important is u take me as a fren!
 u always be my fren forever once i take u as my fren!
 friends forever?YES FOR ME,how bout u tat reading this post?tell me~~)

myday''13 September

hope u guys got some patient reading and dun blame my rojak BI+BM(some BC too)...xD

okay,today is sunday...
yst i sleep about 3.30am =.=''
but i wake up before 9am =="
swt right?caz my little sis and bro bising till me wake up again...
daddy was cooking meal 4 the funeral...
he was busy,so i take care of my meal by myself...
long time no cook ady,but still nice to eat(sure say like tat caz it cook myself,haha)
mummy say the next week holiday on wednesday we need to go grandpa kubur...
haiz...sometimes i think tat mayb i'll get 忧郁症,caz i really like to think this,think tat and end up worrying ><''

oh ya,i promise many people tat i will study hard soon,
and i'm going to do it...
everyone tq 4 calling me 2 study,thx 4 letting me noe a lot of ppl care bout me,
i'm not totally lonely...

and to someone,
it is 1st time i hear u cry,my heart crush when i heard it...
although u try hard to hide it,but i still can fell it...
u dun need to hide it,juz show ur emo to me,i care bout u,okie?
mayb i'm not gud at making ppl fell better,
but i do care bout ppl tat gud to me,
i dun noe wat happen,who would hurt someone so nice 
u r always so gud to me and everyone,
as i always say,u the best...be confident wif urself!!okie?
sometime i dun noe wat to say and how to make u feel better,
but i can do watever to make u feel better,
dun noe u still remember 1 sms tat u sent to me or not,
u'll be the one when i hav no one,it is same 4 me,i'll be ur the one when u hav no one...
even i can be listener when u cry,
如果哭出来会舒服的话,我可以安静的听你哭泣...
i'll be always there 4 u...
A PROMISE IS A PROMISE
I'LL KEEP ALL MY PROMISE

myday''12 September

this morning giv little sis and bro bising till wake up...><'''
then go out breakfast wif daddy,mummy,little sis and bro...
than dad took me to sch...
today is saturday,y i go sch?me got so rajin meh?
caz today fizik teacher giv some extra class...
till 12pm++ only go home...
afternoon spent some time suft the website,chat wif ppl...
noe a lot of new fren from the website and found tat have some nice time chatting wif them...
then got take about 2-3 hour take a afternoon nap...
6pm went to kimia tt...this time,i dun dare take my phone go tt,
caz last week i 4get to bring it home T.T
after tt,i went back home...
i was shock when mummy told me a relative tat stay near by pass away...
she was quite a gud person 4me...
and sudden i think of my friendly grandpa,
i miss him...
y gud ppl pass away so faz one?
i sleep quite late...
caz chatting wif fren...
hope the relative will be go peacefully...

myday''11 September

erm~today very rajin go sch caz tat silly new sch law
1st period,sivik...
we bisingbising sahaja,tat cikgu no mood care wat we do ady
then is moral period~
teacher giv back exam paper le~whole class get A1 except the new student =.=
me get 95
my mood was quite good than...
and then......
acc teacher call me ><''
erm,get some word from him,he say mayb my acc 30+,40+ only~
LOL~tat wat happen when u dint remember all those acc =.=
me and another 2 fren catch by teacher to do some exercise =.='''
after recess only back to class~
BM period~
teacher so faz mark finish le ==''
me total get only 65 for BM...is it B4?
BM1 get 86,i write so hard le T.T
BM2 only 69,tat mean my tatabahasa really bad lo?
sej period,teacher say soalan bocor,need exam again!!
wat?!exam again,must be kidding le...
but its true ><"'
but the marks still take the old 1,
the new test juz for test how well our sej is ><''
after sch,fren call me go acc tt ==''
about 2.30 only get home,starving...
juz finish eat and blog now~~
acc need +u ady,teacher say me still can get A for the whole day ><''
me really can ar?

myday''10 September

today is the bio test~
***yst play game till 1.30am like tat
this morning set two alarm,1 at 5,another at 5.30
i close both of them when they ring =.=
then continue sleep ==''
6.30 like tat i think,my mum call me wake up~
dun noe y,i go take my phone and bio book then put both of them on my head
and then i fall asleep again =.=
today and yst morning same only,really tired dao dun wan wake up ==''
then when i wake up,7.05 ==''
quickly brush and change cloth then drive to sch with high speed again
(accident 2 times ady still dun scare die one~haha)==''
lucky got to sch before bell ring~
exam start at 7.45,try to read but cant read into brain~
so juz sit there wait ''pancung kepala''
open question 1~aiks,i noe do wor~
then question 2 and 3 still okay,then no.4,
die liao~form 5 bio chap 2,3 i dint learn also ==''
and i dint hear when bio teacher teach
so kosong lo~
then secton B,inheritance,i suppose to noe de,
but bcaz of my lazy,no study,i all forget le~
spent a lot of time think wat is use togather with dominant ==
but till end cant think of it,after exam,step out the hall le,
the word come to my brain,recessive!!but too late ady lo~
paper 1 dun noe de juz circle lo~
paper 3 =.=''still okay,today 3 paper i think i done better in this paper
when paper 3 exam~something happen~
the sky rain~really large~
and bcaz we exam in hall,we bag all put outside~
then all ppl rush out of the hall to take bag inside when teacher allow~
the screen move very faz and everyone on their sits back~

afternoon,fren call me go play badminton~
LOL~how long i no play le lo=.=''
i go buy some badminton ball then go GU TIAN join them~
5boy2girl~ from 3.20 till 5.20~
actually wanna spent some time have a nap at the afternoon,
but fren call so go play with them lo~
after play,i think i'm really out of energy ady~
but when went home~after bath c com got energy back~tat com ''power''
tml need go sch~ish*all b caz of tat new sch laws =.= hate it la~
and i really tq god for not making any high raise building at my town now =.=

myday''9 September

okie,today suddenly wanna to update my bloggie~
let do some summary on my trial~
1/9
1st day of trial,2 BM paper,still okay la this paper...
2/9
eng 2 paper and sej obj...i try to write longer essay...
3/9
today is the killing day,sej essay and moral...
thx the wenJ tips,hope it make me pass the sej xD
moral a bit wan hit myself,why hafal kata kunci then 4get nilai ><'''
4/9
2 mathematics paper
this the paper i got a bit confident
8/9
2 add math paper!!
wanna kill myself,for the simultanous equation,i do y then forget do x!!
and wat really stupid is,i 4get how to find f(x)when the question give g(x) and gf(x)
this will make the add math teacher feel dissapoint ==''
9/9
IS TODAY!!
ACC,i dun noe wat should i comment on it ady
paper 1 still ok,paper2......
i did it worse,i 4get all the way to write,erm,can say i 4get the formula
i juz do a bit only
every question do starting and behind all kosong de

till today,it is a bad trial 4 me><''i hate exam
tml bio dun noe how die liao...
okay last saturday kimia tuition i do something stupid,
i left my phone at tuition there,the 2nd day only got back my phone

erm.oh ya...got my hair cut...caz the disiplin teacher keep tolaktolak markah
i tired of it
so i got my hair cut till veryvery short same when i'm in primary school

i hate the stupid sch of mine now
actually i plan to go back cameron and stay there to study after trial
but,wat the stupid new school laws say
after trial must come to sch
if not count as absent,absent 10 day 1st surat amaran
and students that get surat amaran will drop attitude gred
i got 1 surat amaran ady,so my kelakuan change to B ><''
and if i absent 5 more day then will get 2nd letter and kelakuan C
ISH,that mean i got to go sch everyday ady ><''''
and 1 more sch laws,if tat day no exam,must go sch also,
if not cont as absent~~
i hate this sch la~full of stupid laws

i really dun noe what will happen when my trial result comes out =.=
cant think of it...must be scary...

myday''31 August

juz gt my com fix at 29/8 night
and update this and that...blablabla~
take a lot of my time =.=
today com also gt some problem,take my whole afternoon to make it better
but still have problem loR...

trial tml!!!!!i study,but all still in chapter 1 ><''
i'm getting nervous!
when exam near i cant read stuff into my brain!!!
ish*i HATE exam

myday''13 August

1 mounth after my birthday ady!!
long time no update my blog,
juz recover from my super fever =.=
now still cough veryvery cham T.T
u guys noe,now i so afraid to go sch!!!
my sch gt 1 ppl kena H1N1 le...
ambros got 4 ppl kena...
and the india primary sch hor...close liao le!!!!
walau eh,so scare to go out from my house
i dundundundundundun wan to go to sch liao lar...
erm~my pinang trip i put some of the photo at facebook ady
wait i get all thos picture only paste up here at bloggie le ^^
2nd day of the trip jiu sick liao,haiz,feel waste le T.T
omg!!!percubaan coming near =.=
i haven did any preparation >_<

hope all my friends always feel well~
espicially myself,this sick dun noe sick how many times ady,more than 10 i think?haha

Pulau Pinang Trip

erm~not feeling well now,write little ok la~
7/8
1st day play still ok,evening not comfortable le
8/8
2nd day of the trip i fall sick,so i miss a lot of stuff...ish...
now still sick
deman ady recover but still cough dao sot sot

my luck is really really bad for this few days

okay,do some summary on wat happen this few days
28/7
exam still okay...half way exam teacher come and ask me address
i ask her wat that for and she answer me
''surat amaran kerana tidak hadir ke sekolah terlalu banyak hari''
and that letter is sent directly to my house
dun noe wat will happen when dad and mum c it
afternoon many ppl no come account tt
29/7
okay,my internet spoil today,
so i go cc with my fren at the afternoon,
celebrat for juz after exam and check some of my stuff ><
and we play as a nice team,hav some nice time this day
30/7
today school having ceramah
BI,FI,KI
this 3 ceramah almost kill most of us
afternoon when going tt
i have some accident
a motor sudden show up and coming toward me
i dun wanna to crush on him so i change my way but i fall caz his motor still knock the behind of my motor
he was driving with super high speed
i juz dodge him caz i dun wanna to crush on him
but i feel the world dark,
when i fall,he juz take a look at me and keep drive away with high speed
i heart feel cold for the world
cant u juz come and help me up?
i'm badly injured okay?
caz it juz near my tt there,so i went tt 1st
again feel dark to the world
all ppl was cold hearted
got home after tt,and told my dad
his face was dark,i'm juz dodge that ppl from crushing on me,is that also my fault?
or i should juz crush on him only u will care about me?
told mum 4th times only she hear about it,
she juz too busy to talk her phone when i told her
caz i fall to the left side,
i'm injured
but i dun wanna told ppl around me
i'll be alright soon
juz injured my legs,hands and my chest
31/7
today no go to school
actually i wanna to go school
caz today MA,MT ceramah
but when i wake up,
whole body was painful
i cant raise my hand up today,feel very painful when i do so
tt eng,my relative take me there and take me home
then FI tt,i got more injured
the ppl sitting beside me keep stick to me
he juz keep hitting the spot where i feel painful
1/8
today feel better ady
can raise hand up a bit
no go to kimia tt,
caz i forget that teacher change the time
and night i juz hav some proper look at my body
caz mum wanna to c it ><
there was so many scratch and injury
my body was full with black and green
and my body part near the left chest and below my hand was so painful
is was totally 肿起来了
my chest was better ady but still very painful

and this few day having some dream,
i really dun noe wat to do with this dream
dream about wat happen last year AUGUST
all about it,
i dint really wanna to think about it anymore
but it juz come to my dream,haiz

sometimes i feel that everyone was cold
i was being desolate by ppl
i dun like this.A BIT OF IT ALSO DUN LIKE
is the world dark or bright?
i DUN NOE anymore...DUN NOE　ABOUT IT ADY

myday''27 JULY

today wake up at 5am to study
study got reason de la~
no reason sure no touch books~LOL
today is monday,
is 27th JULY
exam today ><''
1st paper,BM
not enough time to do it la~
2nd paper SEJ
morning i got read SISTEM　AHLI,y now there is this question and i forget liao~''==
3rd paper BIO
can die there liao,all diagram dun noe wat lai de,i hate label organ!!
4th paper MA
it the paper i like the most today^^caz only this paper i noe do it all
went home have my lunch~
tml can die le la~BI,PM,MT,KI,haizzzzz~~~

myday''26 JULY

today is sunday again~
wake up quite late also,yst sleep also about 4am,LOL
feel really tired~
today afternoon hear 萧敬腾 new songs,i like it~
got many songs like 会痛的石头,我不会爱,寂寞还是你etc.
when looking at it song scrip,
lets me think of some old memory
and got 1 song name 阿飞的小蝴蝶
i like it~the music and chorus was great~
night study lo~
10pm only i wan study =.=
study till 11 go sleep le,tired~LOL

myday''25 JULY

today wake up very late~
afternoon i think~caz yst sleep at about 4.30 ><''
afternoon like usual only~
6pm go kimia tuition~
then 8pm come home watch 新秀大赛
long time dint have my dinner in front tv~xD
and i hear a song that i like~我恨我爱你
he sing it quite good but so bad he get no.5
erm~i lazy to write the name~haha~lazy me~
watch till 11.15pm,till the end~gx to the winner~haha
then i think there is some problem with my phone ><"'
i sent sms there keep say message not receive~LOL
caz i use the old phone for 016~haiz~
then pass 12am,2 phone also expired~LOL
stupid phone la~~~dun wan go top go,wait got use only top up~~xD

myday''24 JULY

today no go school~
caz today is hari kokurikulum~
sleep till late morning~
big sis also no go sch~
then go lunch with daddy,mummy~
when coming home,
saw fren they going up bus~
they go support sch pancaragam team~
today is final at ipoh~
afternoon fetch small sis come home~
on the way saw a motor accident
2pm go tuition~
teacher told us something about fake phone call
today got 1 mother got 1 phone call say her daughter been kipnap
so she rush to sch
then sch check for her and her 3 daughter all at sch
and teacher tell us got another ppl also get this type of phone call and come to sch
2 fake call at the same day ><''
so we must be careful for fake phone call
got 1 sitiawan ppl giv ppl lie and giv RM 6000 to other ppl bank
juz bcaz of fake phone call ==
also teacher told us de~got many more~
then when i go home i take the road where the afternoon i saw accident happen
the whole road was full with pieces of motor light
night i upgrade my internet explorer,and finally no more bigbig word~xD
happy~
smile make life better~
and c bk nice sentences at MSN~cool~like it

myday''23 JULY

today went school quite early~
i make my alarm ring at 5 but i off it and wake up at 6.30
take my bath quick and then go school~
bio period,still sleeping~lol
then pm period also sleeping~
since when i become so lik sleep~xD
then BM teacher giv us write karangan~
i do it with heart this time~
no luan luan lai liao~
after recess is 2MA 2MT
so long MT period i stay awake listen to teacher~
MA period chatting~
caz teacher no teach~he ady finish all the chapter ==

afternoon eng tt~
and y gt such ppl de?
today talk about a topik about test
when teacher ask who lik test~
5 or 6 ppl among us raise up the hand(there are only 10 of us)
u guys like exam meh?crazy ar
i dun like it
and wat,teacher agree with them ><''
teacher say she like exam too...
finish tt go home~
boring~mum keep saying to me
keep call me study
and compare me with ppl
she juz no stop telling me...
haiz~
i noe she care about me
but i noe wat i'm doing~
i juz cant read in
u wanna me to study long time can,
but after study,i sure that there is nothing in my mind~xD
caz really cant go into my brain

myday''22 JULY

today i forget is wednesday ==
got perhimpunan!!!
so long i dint go perhimpunan ><''
and wat happen today perhimpunan~
today got lagu negeri ><''
1st time i hear it
and it is also the 1st time we need to sing it at perhimpunan
lagu negara dahulu not lagu negeri Perak ar??
but the lagu negeri different with lagu negera ><"
last period teacher no come~
library teacher come in with some book~
and we juz knew that pisang got so many animal name dun noe
so me and li yan test her~
it was funny when she speak another animal name when we asking another animal~
xD

afternoon no tuition again~
so i play~xD
night watch tv with sis~
sleep early also~~xD

myday''21 JULY

today at school i go PJ~
so long no PJ~haha
then 4 period at 2 lab~
recess duty KOPERASI~
after recess 5 period is all language period-2BI,2BM,1BC
wanna crazy with such period~~
afternoon go tt~
night about 10 ady go sleep~

myday''20 JULY

today is monday again~
normal at school~no special~
afternoon no tt~
this tt teacher say his tt rest for 2 week~
so afternoon me play again ''==
then dun noe y i lie on my bed then fall asleep ><''
i sleep till my sis call me up for dinner ><
it was around 10
then i do my homework~
about 12.30 my little brother wake up~
he sleep from 4 till 12
more 'geng' then me =.=
then he say wanna watch powerranger ==
so my daddy call me open giv him c,
then i bring him to my room and open U-tube giv him c
and i do my stuff at aside
then till 2am i told him this the last one
he say okie
after finish watch that he say one more one more
and then i keep say this the last one
i dunnoe how many time we say that ==''
then at about 3 i say this the last one and off the computer after he finish watch it ><''
i tell him tml i wanna go sch and told him to go sleep
then he say wan to sleep with me~sweat ==
so i let him sleep with me
then after a while he stand up and talk to me like a baby><''
he say''ur bed not nice de''
then he went to mum room =.=
since when u so naughty ><"

myday''19 JULY

wa~so faz
1 week pass ady~
wat also not yet study
plan to study but till now haven study anything
whole day spent wif com again~haiz~~~
a bit boring~:x
lazy write also~
lazy me~
tired~~~

myday''18 JULY

today is saturday~
lazy go uniform la~
sleep till very late~
all day in infront com~
giv mum scold ><''

wanna study but cant study in~
tuition kimia something funny happen~~
juz knew that the teacher also like joking~xD
night also spent wif my com =.=''

myday''17 JULY

today go school~pm sv can say same like no teacher~
then pj again form 5 vs form 3~football ><''
i dint bring pj shirt so i juz watch~
then mt and ma~
mt teacher ask me ><''
how i'm doing wif MT
wanna to answer not ok!!
then recess~
sej and BM pass fastly~
went home then~
today giv guan chuan a ride~

afternoon wanna go play wif fren~
but caz too many ppl ady,
so i change my mind go tuition~xD
fizik tt that teacher no thing say him le la~
he say next week no tt again and nextnext week last time ><"
u haven teach us goodgood u stop ady~wat la u~
me haven noe anything la =.=
wan me die for my fizik meh ><''

night play com only~
boring~

myday''16 JULY

today i'm so tired...
really dun wan to go school...
the clock ring ady i close it
untill 7a.m. only i wake up~
tired~~~
sleep at school~~~
today they kimia kuiz~
today before recess 5 period same like no teacher~
after recess 4 period of math~2 MT 2 MA
haiz~dun noe why so tired~~~

myday''15 JULY

today feel so lazy to wake up~
i'm tired dun noe why
today the weather was cold
morning when i go to school the sky was dark
then 3rd or 4th period the sky rain
it was nice to sleep,if i was at home
today i go school caz there is no assemble
recess i go for eat caz it was too cold,i need some food to warm up~
last 2 period before going home i was sleeping~xD
too tired ady lo...

afternoon tuition~
teacher wan us to write karangan
i do it simple way only caz i dun have any idea to write karangan today
wanna to study but this few day i'm too tired to study,
take the book a while sure sleep ady...haiz...

myday''14 JULY

LOLZ today almost late to school~
stupid clock no ring ><''
lucky sis call me up if not i sure no go ady
went school the bell ady ring~
today 1 pengawas at the door only~
he no catch me give me pass~so good~tq u~
today biology teacher no come
then recess duty koperasi,as normal~
then after recess when i went back to class
i meet with ''x-gan mei'' at the staircase
and what she say to me?
''yst wat happen?''
what?u ask me yst wat happen?yst my birthday then no thing ady ar~
so i answer her no thing ar
and wat she say
she shout!!''zha dao''
wat la?u zha dao shout wat pula
u taking me as joke or wat?
my english teacher is walking behind me ok?and my fren also walking beside me ok?
now u making shame of me ok?
and now my class is english period
li yan give me a eyesight and i noe he call me to go
mayb i should hear to li yan,hsean zhong,zhi kuang advise last time
i should have 不当her as my sister
caz wat she doing is juz call me do stuff and juz get benifit from me
that wat the other tell me
and that y i got no ''gan mei'' ady~
nvm la~u wan make me shame u juz go ahead~
i will not affect by u~
happy always~that wat i learn
smile will defeat everything~
eng period~i sleep...haiz
caz that teacher talking make everyone sleep
then the teacher talk to me
she ask me
''chun hoong y u this year look so tired one?last time form3 teach u u was so alert''
this make me feel something
i have change :)

afternoon acc tt~that teacher teach so faz
lucky still can follow ><''
today dun noe y feel cold~
tt there so hot me still feel cold ><''
mayb my sick not recover yet?dun care it la~

bk~thx to u~
i'll remember u as 1 of my best fren till ever~xD
today pass with happy~
hope tml will be a more happy day~

mybirthday''13 JULY

今天就用华语来写写吧
昨晚终于把成绩册交到了妈咪的手中
结果不说你们应该都懂了 ><''
过后我回房间想了想
拿了书出来，放在桌上
我，终于读书了！！

读了一小时多，拿起017电话，有一封信息
是契姐的信息，看了看信息上的时间，12.00
开进去~看了好开心，契姐在12.00准寄了第一封生日信息给我，谢谢姐！！
然后我就开开心心的去睡觉了啦~虽然不是很舒服~哈哈~
早上起床~哇~原来那么久了，朋友们还记得我的信息~
文君昨天寄了今天还是有寄，好有心哦~嘻嘻
干姐寄了一封MMS给我，那个蛋糕好美~可惜吃不到，哈哈
然后去冲凉，出来看下，这次是咏欣~哈哈，谢谢你们~

上学去鲁~出门前那种感觉又来了，胸口有东西顶着，呼吸困难 ><''
告诉妈咪~妈咪叫我别去上学，去看医生
才不要，我不喜欢看医生 ><''
所以赶快跳上摩托走人~哈哈

在学校我没告诉别人我今天生日
不过志强还是记得了 ><''
他第一个亲口跟我睡生日快乐
然后世伟听了问我今天生日啊？
哈哈，他也忘记了~新杭也是
下课我留在班没乱跑
到了最后两节~fizik
我都是快去lab的，贤存也跟我说生日快乐
原本以为没惊喜了，然后就做BM功课
其他人听课的听课，玩东西的在后面玩东西
做做下，突然听到有人唱生日歌
原来是Joshua他们唱生日歌给我
因为我们是坐后面的，顿时前面全部人都看过来了
班上全部人都懂我生日了啦~~~
然后好多人跟我说生日快乐
文荣就问我，那么好友，生日也静静的没说出来~
哈哈~我原本是不想说的~可是最后还是全部人都懂了~

回到家还有收到其他的信息~
Melody~气建~
facebook也有几个朋友写给我~
然后晚上收到Lemon的~
谢谢你们~~终于感觉到暖暖的了~
今天好开心~
然后呢，晚上爹地跑去买了一个蛋糕给我，虽然很幼稚下，不过还是谢谢爹地~我的第3个蛋糕 xD
不过呢，我的016电话没响到~因为都在学校讲了嘛~哈哈~
不过曾经对我来说很重要的那个人还是忘记了~还是他记得只是因为某些原因美寄呢？
我也不知道，怎么还在傻傻等他的信息，不该想了xD~
今天生日就开开心心别想不开心的东西
我许了3个愿，17+3刚好20~嘻嘻~
又老了1岁了 ><''
该成熟点了~我知道，不管怎样，你们这班金马仑的老友一定会记得我的~
我不是一个人，不开心时，想想还有你们就行了~
我终于想通了~
lonely!You are not lonely and alone!!
那就是我长大1岁的领悟~哈哈哈哈哈

蛋糕的照片+我今天放学后拍的呆呆照片（我戴眼镜还是没带好？给些意见xD）

myday''12 JULY

yst i sleep early also...
but this morning i wake up late
when i wake up my bone was pain inside
mum say this was because of the rain
morning and afternoon i still feel ok...

but when evening...
become worst a bit
my bone was pain,my head was so painful and pening
mum give me a pot of tea
i drink it but no effect
then i take some panadol
start from yst i only eat noodle,bread and porridge
and i only take a little amount only
no appetite

this morning when i look at my phone i get 2 birthday sms
aik!my birthday not tml?
so i ask them
chi yan say her phone expired tml so sms me earlier
and boon kuan remember wrong~LOL
but nvm la~thx for the sms~
i feel warm for the sms,thx for both of u
erm~afternoon when i open msn got 1 game fren also say birthday to me^^
he say scare me tml no online so say earlier~
haha~thx too~but how u noe my birthday?forget ask him pula...

juz now mum say to me
wan birthday le only sick ><''
last year also like that ''==
and this year cny also gastrik cant eat many thing
y me always sick when there is a celebration ><''
since when i become so weak ady? ''><
mayb i need to change my lifestyle
ya...change my lifestyle
got to plan a healthy lifestyle...xD

myday''11 JULY

SORRY NO CURE
thats wat i learn this 2 year
so dun simply say sry to me
i dun lik ppl say sry or can say i hate it!!!

today still sick
i sleep till almost 11 only wake up...
afternoon dun noe do wat
6 went to tuition
i was suffering for 3 thing...
1.i was sick,my head was so pain and i'm not feeling well
2.i left my glasses at sch so i cant c the whiteboard properly
3.the air condition got problem making my sick body become more hot

night i chat with lots of ppl
and i juz dun like ppl no response or cold
i dun like it,juz let me got the feeling tersisih
u also noe the feeling right?its was not good at all!not good at all!!

and 1 thing,
i'm ady veryveryvery blur
dun make me more blur le ok?
tell me wat happen,dun juz say a bit no say a bit,
i'm lame as u say,and + stupid also,
so say clearly wat happen pls,i begging

sick and the stuff happen around me make me really peningpening

myday''10 JULY

today morning wake up feel a bit not well
but anyway i still got go school
this few day morning the temperature was too nice making ppl dun wanna to wake up

at sch fren call me play match after sch
caz we are a team
so i go wif them
anyway i juz wanna to release my mood or watever

then i go for tuition
i juz feel hot and cold for the whole day
when go home,i sit at the chair beside my mum
my mum touch my body and say y me sick le also no tell her
me really blur ady
caz sick le also dun noe ><''

mum today take back something for me
that was a ring left by granpa for us
all of my cousin and sibling and cousin also got this thing
it was a ring with clock inside
i keep it granpa

feel bad when headache come ><''
sleep early
so i post this in saturday actually

here some of the photo of the ring

myday''9 JULY

today at sch...
i have decided last night
i will not go recess
i dun wanna c thos ppl again
if i gastrik again,i dun care
i juz dun wanna c thos no heart,2 face ppl

so the recess i sit on my place
staring at my book
i dun noe wat i did
or wat i'm thinking
caz my mind is blank
i juz lik a fresh walking meat

afternoon i go to primary sch to fetch my sis so i late for my eng tt
and that time was raining
now i'm feeling hot and cold
mayb tml i will sick
then i dun need to go sch again
i dun wanna to go sch
i hate going sch start from tuesday!!!

today is granppa ''hui hun ye''
so mum and little bro go granpma house at the morning
and yst mum say bring me go but i think she forget bout it ady

night,
i wanna to study
but when i take my book
i'm juz too frustration to study
i hate lik thing
y thing turn this ways...

myday''8 JULY

yst night i tell mum that i dun wanna go sch today
and she say ok so i dint go sch...
whole morning i'm thinking
i'm stress,but not at the morning
i'm juz lying on my bed looking at the clock...
tic tok tic tok
the clock moving
my mind keep thinking...
yst actually i wanna to find one person
but no reply
mayb that person is buzy,very buzy
i'm telling this to myself
or mayb?that person also dun wanna care me ady?
feel lonely.....

this whole day i feel that i'm weired
i juz dun noe that...
wat i must do
wat i should do
wat i will do

shall i find someone else?but i'm scare
scare wat?hurt!!i'm scare that i will be hurt again!!
i juz lik my fren but why they wanna hurt me?
i dun noe...
i getting blur...
i ady dun noe wat is in their mind
they are scary
they got 2 face
the hidding face,when they show it,i'll be hurt by them
i'm scare of thos hidden face...

why there is no one when i need someone
i'm juz wait for that person to reply me,caz i noe that person will not hurt me
and other fren that care bout me,sry...
caz i juz wanna to get a safety feel then only i'll find u...i'm scare of same thing ever happen again,i cant go through the same thing again

myday''7 JULY

今天在学校
有两个科目的老师跟我聊了聊
说我成绩很明显退步了，还是退很厉害的那种
其中一个老师问我为什么退步了
叫我回家好好想想

我为什么退步了？我自己也不懂
因为我去年也是这样啊
下午补习后
我躺在床上慢慢思考

晚上
有一件很对我打击很很很大的事件发生了
我已经忘记我最后一次哭是什么时候了，
因为那次我答应过我自己一定会坚强
外公去世，我也坚强的忍了过去
但今晚发生的事
令我，我把之前的事包括外公的事发出来了
我忍耐已久的心情，爆发了
泪，在我脸上滑了下来
我，崩溃了
我，不懂该找谁
我，觉得好无助，好孤单
朋友是什么？毫无头绪了...朋友，突然对我好陌生的字眼
我最珍惜的东西，结果却是伤我最深的东西

myday''6 JULY

today at ntg special
juz when early go sch the sky wanna to rain so it was windy
the temperature was nice at that moment

afternoon tuition end up playing some kuiz stuff with fren
a lot of my brain cell die caz i use my brain so hard for the iq thing ><''

got home watch tv then hear song...
was tired and fall asleep for a few times

still facing a problem
my report card was in my file
and the file is in my bag
but since last thursday i put it into the file in the bag,
i dint take it out
the record card was juz hide inside my bag ><''
wat am i going to do with it...........

myday''5 JULY

today wake up late caz yst night read the novel too late ><''
by the way,caz i finish that book,
today was so boring...
i dun wanna to study...
thos book seem so boring to me
juz touch them feel asleep ady

afternoon snake come my house for finding some news songs and do some of his stuff
juz a while only he went home ady
and me become bored again

but today i smile...
caz my little brother
this few day he lik to stick wif me,
i also dun noe why ><''
then i play wif him
and when finish play,
i smile and even laugh...
i am laughing at myself
so big ady still play little game wif little boy
haha~i'm laughing at myself
since when i'm so lik child,
mayb my mind haven grown also,stuck at my little boy mind ><'' LOLS
but anyway,thx little brother...

myday''4 JULY

today wake up at 9.30~
dun noe today got uniform meeting or not~
dun care bout it liao~

and afternoon sister gave me a book to read
《草莓味的SUMMER NIGHT》that book not bad~
while i was reading this book
my sis own the com for the whole afternoon
no wonder so good giv me book c~haha

tuition kimia at 6~
last week dint come for tuition so i got to catch up wat teacher teach ><''
but still cant get it well~LOL
and got a ''khabar angin'',i dun noe it good or bad
a teaher daughter mayb get affected by H1N1 caz she juz got back from KL
and the teacher and his family are all checking
dun noe true or not
if really got affected,
sch mayb closed for 1 week @@

after tt go home and continue reading that book from sis
so the night sis playing the com also~
juz call sis giv me write blog a while then back to read that book ><''
my reading speed become slow ady after so long no read book ><'' LOL

myday''3 JULY

yst night too late sleep ady~
today wake up at 7a.m. ><''
quickly get brush,get my shirt change and blablabla...etc~
then jump on my motor and speed to school~
lucky i got inside school before the sch bell ring

quite boring today at school~
today the pancaragam competition~
only the ''pengadil'' come to our sch to giv marks ><''

afternoon go eng tuition~
teacher get sick >,<
her face and lips was so white
my fren joke say teacher almost got H1N1 then we all run joR
fren was juz joking~~~
hope the teacher recover faz~

and after so long,
at last today got fizik tuition...
i think got 1 month no tuition ady ><''
that teacher keep go for trip~

ntg special today...
boring day~~

myday''2 JULY

today giv pisang ''zha'' dao
she suddenly walk to my behind and say to me~
''coconut,你的背影很像失恋的人！''
walau eh...
i noe i'm sad...
but not caz putus cinta sad la ><''
and then i ask other fren..
they agree wif wat pisang say...
speehless for that...

afternoon tertidur ar eng tuition...
i'm too tired...
today got my report card ady!!!
how am i going to giv it to my mum and dad ><'''
worrying.....
erm~3july johnphua birthday~happy birthday~sry cant celebrate wif u~too far ady ''><

my exam result was bad ><''
really need to study ady
mum also keep call me to study every morning when i wake up ><''
i noe she's worrying bout me...
so i will study hard soon...
i will do my best for my SPM,ppl that care bout my result,i'll not let u all down...

myday''1 JULY

after tuition snake and wen rong came my house to check PLKN
its so hard to log in to that website ><''
i dint kena for PLKN~lucky~
and snake dun believe he kena ><'''
and we check PLKN then dunno why we go seach for michael jackson songs and watch his video at u-tube ~~
in sch many ppl talk bout it
my class got quite many ppl kena

today night got something happen...
i help in the shop for the whole night
it was quite sudden
i help till 11p.m. and i get so tired...
without thinking of my ''hill homework'',
i go to sleep ady...

and today something happen that make me feel really going down...
why someone juz so lik to tell thing to their mum
and then their mum told my mum then me kena pula...
i juz wanna to express my mood,my feeling and my life in my blog
can someone that read my blog take it as a secret
why u wanna tell all ppl about wat i come throught...
i admit that i hate ppl doing like this...
make me feeling that i lost my last freedom to speak and express my feeling...
i ady so stressful...why cant i juz get a place to speak out wat my soul feeling??

myday''30 JUN

我要崩溃了！！！
今天，很多不开心，好多好压力的事！！
在学校，国语老师今天不懂又骂谁，结果又是全班中招。。。
回到家，奇怪，妈咪怎么在家的？没去做工？
跟妈咪说话没回答。。。
妹妹连忙把我叫到旁边，告诉我父母又吵架了
不过这次吵到很厉害！！第一次妈咪不去店做工！！
刚进房间，就听到妈咪不懂在骂谁了

往往，我们都是受害者。。。不管是父母还是老师。。。

补习，好多东西要做，好多不会做
都怪去年没好好学
后悔了
老师一直一直叫我们要不断做练习
时间不够用了啦！！

回到家，好多功课。。。
上星期多天没去学校的''结果''

我真的好烦呐。。。
功课，学业，家庭，老师
多方面的压力好辛苦
快崩溃了啦！！！

myday''29 JUN

today i act weired in school...
i'm such a goodboy today...
i keep study in school for today
and i cant believe that i din't go group chat wif other in lab lik usual!!

i hav decided,
i'll becoming a good boy back
and that my decision
i will did it no matter how hard it take
it's still not too late for me to turn back right?
i cant let down those ppl that trust me can get good result!!!

i feel that i'm such a lier...
when ppl ask how am i,
i juz answer i'm alright althought i feel so down and blur
sry for ppl that care bout me...
i juz lie caz i dun wanna u all to worry...really...sry.....